Its My Whole Life In Words

Well to update because its been like 7 weeks since I last posted. I'll make this short and sweet cause I have to continue getting ready for work.

Things couldnt be more perfect in my life. 
I have my amazing boyfriend back, and things are better than ever
We got a new puppy,
I've done a lot of cool things this summer (and its only the begining)
I have great friends and my baby to share the rest of the summer with, and then some.



I feel so happy =)

Great so I've been really really sick for the past 5 days, go to the doctors and the fucking cunt behind the counter tells me to come back at 1. I was crying because I was in so much pain, and the bitch could have cared less. I'm in so much pain, my whole body feels numb, I can hardly talk, I had a high fever last night, I threw up thismorning and my throat was bleeding (yes bleeding) thismorning...

I cant take this I feel like I'm dying =(



At least life is making an interesting turn around for the... well Im not sure, but its been interesting.


ughhhhhhhhhh

the past... oh I dont know how many days... maybe the past two weeks? Well they have been for the most part, good. School is going good, work is still work, been hanging out with Dayna and going on broventures, my tattoo looks awsome, been hanging out over at Brians a little more, painted two of those days. Sometime last ween we forulated the idea that Brian is going to get a spaceship with a purple beam and abduct me... Not to mention, he is stealing all my left socks! Bro and myself went over to John's the other night to watch movies about retards, always fun. 



Aliyah got me sick, and it sucks being today was my only day off from work and school. Im going to bed early tonight... This time I sware it!

Lately I've been working, hanging out with John, Chris, Kaitlyn (cause she's out then I get to go see her!) Kim and James, Dayna and Tanya (in different order slightly)

Friday went to my appt and it went SOOO well! I go back in three weeks.

Saturday I hung out with chris, kaitlyn, kimmy and james at james's house dying hair haha

and yesterday I hung out with John, dropped him off at his brothers and then hun out with chris, kaitlyn james and kim. Chris is gunna come with John and I to the city (mucho partying) talked to a really funny guy names Taso that kaitlyn knows from up there aaaaaaaaaaand so many fun things are being planned. I cant wait. Anyway I have to go get ready for work. Shower time =)

Today started my first class which I love. Abnormal Psych with Doc (who is a great professer) Have to start thinking of the topic for the first project. Should be fun. After class I went to the bank, then to walgreens to get some school notebooks, got this cool one that acts as a dry erase board for notes and such. Good fora forgetful person like myself. After that I hung out in the parking lot to my job before I had to go to work and copied the notes from today into one of my new books. Got into work, talked to Theresa about the Laser Light Show, woot. Rich was closing so it was cool. Couldnt wait to go home and now that I am home, I talked with my mom for a bit (she took a limmo to washington today for her job, how classy is that? Oh yea and she brought me home cigs haha), ate a little and now here I sit, exhausted from my day. I think I'll take a nice relaxing bubble bath and enjoy the rest of my night. Oh yea and I requested off for the days that I'm going to the city to see Kaitlyn and Dave. And this Friday Bro, aunt Tanya and I are going to my appointment, and having a very bronderful night, maybe getting some Cold Stone, wooo hooo.




Bath time!

So I've been listening to my favorite COLD cd lately (13 ways to bleed on stage) Oh how I've missed it so. It brings back a lot of memories and feelings from a time when things seemed hard, but really were so simple. This cd will never get old to me. I've become addicted to a game (kind of like the sims, only I cant just kill one select person off haha) Tonight was the bar night for Syds 21st birthday and here I sit, home because I didnt want to piss Baci off about using the car. Oh well. 

Its freezing in my room.


Overall things were very... alright on a slightly more "meh" side.


But I did start on my first floral piece! 
(did I forget to mention I'm being trained in the floral department now? oh yea and I got a raise)

There's a game life plays
makes you think you're everything they ever said you were
Like to take some time
Clear away everything I planned

Was it life I betrayed?
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much?
could I disappear?
and there's nothing that's left but wasted years

There's nothing left but wasted years

If I could change my life
Be a simple kind of man 
try to do the best I can
if I could see the signs
I'd derail every path I could
now I'm about to die
won't you clear away from me
give me strength to fly away 

Was it life I betrayed?
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much?
could I disappear?
and there's nothing that's left but wasted years 

All these wasted tears

Was it life I betrayed?
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much?
could I disappear?
and there's nothing that's left but wasted years 

There's nothing left but wasted years
There's nothing left but wasted years
There's nothing left but wasted years

Was it life I betrayed?
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win































I shwi uyo lal nwke usjt owh rahd i retid ot veil payhp

I elvo lal fo uyo seplae vifgore em

Ever felt away with me?
Just once that all I need
Entwined in finding you one day

Ever felt away without me?
My love, it lies so deep
Ever dream of me?

I... feel alone.

I hate laptops too!



If your going to block me and be rude you could at least tell me what your so pissed about. Ten to one its nothing if you cant come to me about it.



On another sidenote, bad news sucks. 
Bad news makes you think...
I cant and wont even get into that right now.



But its raining... I love the rain... Reminds me of how I used to play in it carelessly, not so many years ago... I still would.. But I just dont feel that same life in me. 



Oh how I wish for southing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

I now weigh 127.2 My new jeans are loose on me, how sad! (but hey I wanted the weigh gone and I plan to keep it that way)

Theres that word again... Im startiing to not like that word so much. The 6th came and gone and the only  thing I can possibly link to it is seeing Dave Porter. 


Whatever...


All is calm with my baby boy sleeping right next to me on my bed keeping my leg warm. I wouldnt trade Clyde in for the world. He is my happiness in a little bundle of orange fur